This is to you

To all those who call me a baby and tell me to suck it up, and who don't understand, this is to you.

"There is no point in treating a depressed person as though she were just feeling sad, saying, There now, hang on, you'll get over it. Sadness is more or less like a head cold- with patience, it passes. Depression is like cancer." - Barbara Kingsolver

Why

is it so hard for me to let go of the past?
when i look back, i only remember the goodand i ignore the bad.
i can't remember why it happened.
but when i think of you, tears come to my eyes.
i don't know if i loved you
or just liked you a lot.
but when i hear that song, i just breakdown.
you were amazing.
you had an amazing voice,
a beautiful smile,
gorgeous eyes.
why did i ever let you go?
why can't i move on?
why don't things ever turn out the way they should?